stress at all time high

Hey gals- the stress level in our house is tremendous- last night I did turn to some chocolate cake- not too much I had the mini version of those microwaves cakes- it was 160 calories- so it was a moment of weakness but I did restrain some!
I cannot give details but I wish I could wave a magic wand and fix things- all the stress is beyond my control and has to go through a certain process - I will keep ya'll posted. I am excited to start in June on round 2- It is friday and pay day so - wooo hooo!
TGIF gals!

Hump day

I am stabilizing well so I am really wanting the next round-! June 1st is when it will be!
Going to do some testing of students and finish packing up 2nd classroom I need to move- the first one is done and trying to unpack, teach, and test students it is crazy but interesting!
I had a hot dog last night- what was I thinking- I should have just had the glass of water I drank and moved on!
oh well- I will have to flush that sodium out with soem more water and fresh vegetables today!
Have a good wednesday!

Monday already

Seriously the weekend had one good day and that was it!
we had a packed weekend full of acticitie and end of the year retirment parties! I ate way to much cabbage salad yesterday- my stomach is really upset but it was smart because I am not up- I am still at 202.3 which is great because the cake with fresh strawberries in the middle was delightful yesterday!
I am doing an apple day just to get my gut reset with fiber and calm it down! I am glad that I navigated around that yummy food but did well!
It is the last full week of school! I am so thrilled summer will be here soon!
I am also excited about round 2 in June, so alot to look forward to and I am excited I am starting it with others- so it will be fun to blog and do it with others!
Have a great week andI am praying for all those teachers out there! BE STRONG FOLKS!

Are you serious?

okay- this time of year is so hectic, but I really beleive being a teacher this time of year means you should get served free margaritas- just present your school ID and boom- first round is free!
I am staying at 204 it has been that way since last week- I have been eating with control- which is a plus and I am gearing up for the next round!
I want to start in June as soon as we get back from the Air Force graduation. I am excited to see family and friends and I am thrilled Corbin will see the academy- this is his goal to see all of this will just reinforce it all!
Lis found an old photo of me and wow- I hav ebeen fat and puffy for a long time! So glad I started this journey- can't wait to get to the skinny phase and not just in the im- between phase- shopping is fun but I am im- between sizes in pants so I am working on figuring that out- whank goodness shorts are coming into season!
Take care out here!
Today- after school is the only day we do not have an activity so- yipppeee!

got a ticket today

okay- I didn't stop at a stop sign and got a ticket- that started my day!
I am glad it is friday but what a crazy week and today as well!
1/2 day of school- crazy schedule and I found out my husband will not be around on mother's day- oh well- you cant have it all!
Forgot to take my B12 this morning and the new chromium supplement - so I have had no sugar today and forgot breakfast- obviously I was in a hurry since I ran a stop sign! so no breakfast- I am eating some noodles and a plate of fruit right now so I will not be starving by lunchtime. Lots going on- so I will let you go!
have a great friday adn remember to come to a complete STOP at all stop signs!

sugar

Sugar is like a narcotic isn't it.
I threw the remaining cookie cake out. I will never have that in my house again!
I found out from my friend Heather to try a time released chromium to help with the sugar thing. I am trying it today with a multi vitamin and b12- so far I feel better than before. I had a weak moment last night and at 9:30 enjoyed Lay's potato chips ( no they were not baked) three pices of cookie cake and a diet coke! Hah- what a bunch of crap!
well I was around 205 this morning- so I will eat clean the next few days and see what is going on!
Time to menu plan and grill some. No more of this just grabbing and going type eating- it is so not healthy!
Corbin's braces hurt today! so I made him soup for lunch and am trying to get back on track. Still tired- the junk food hasn't helped! It wasn't even good! What a waste!
Have a good one!

brace yourself

My oldest had his upper braces put on today- poor guy- it should be interesting. We are paying for braces instead of new flooring in the kitchen- so OH WELL- such is life with kids!
I am down 1.6 today so I am around my LDW weight today- the cookie cake and extras from the weekend did me in!
I am going to trya steak day today- I think that might work! we will see!
I updated the blog last night- had some time to play around- it is almost too cutesy- I will play more soon!
Have a great hump day!

Stop the world I want to get off.

it is an apple day today- I enjoyed the cookie cake way too much!
So I am going to feast on some apples and water and see what happens!
I am working in an industry right now that is so off their rocker it makes me sick to my stomach!
I relly hate the leadership style of our current district administration- it is not positive or mentally good in any way shape or form!
It is depressing to come to work everyday and favce their management style. the only thing keeping me together is my health and that my immediate boss has leadership skills and has vision. I seriously wonder why our district thinks that 3 unqualified people can sit in"cabinet" all day making shit up and implementing it when it is not sound for kids and education.
I hate who I work for!
Grumpy about that today.
Please stop the world--- I wnat to get off for a little bit- this ride makes me dizzy!

I survived

It went so well- I think!
Austin was thrilled and loved his day- i was a nervous wreck and couldn't believe it was here! His big day!
I did get to emotional at our reception when we had a toast and thanked our family and friends. I am a wreck because I miss my parents so much and when I see them I am happy and now that they are gone- I am sad and emotionally exhausted. I went to have cake and eat on Saturday and was so overwhelmed I couldn't eat nor- did i want the cake- wow- My friend Heather was right- you get real choosy with what you eat and what tastes good.
I loved what I wore though and it was very comfortable. Some people who had not see ME in awhile were blown away at how I looked! That was a joy and I really enjoyed standing up and taking pictures as a family- for the first time since my wedding - I think! 16 years later- wow!Didn't mind a picture or two.
So my son's are well on their way to having a strong foundation in the church!i am thrilled it went as planned but I am so exhausted I want to be in pajamas and have a movie- a thon day- rent a bunch of chick flicks and do nothing!
No rest for the wicked! no rest for a mother!
Parents flew out today-I pray for a safe arrival and I will not see them until July 1st. Hopefully by then I will be down another 30 pounds and definitely a few spray tans later! LOVE the VERSA SPA
I am really glad I treated myself to this spray tan thing- I felt great- it looked real and so much safer than laying out!
the price is great also! so i will keep up the spray tan thing! New addiction! watch out!
I want to thank all you gals for the awesome messages you left last week- I was so busy couldn't blog this weekend- but it went well and my mom kept calling me skinny- how about that! skinny- well I know my Dad was impressed and when I explained how I had done it- he wanted more info so he could maybe do it!
It is so flattering when people copy or do what you are doing! Gotta love it- 38 and making my parents proud still!
Well I better get back on track!
Thanks to all my gal pals and I will post pictures soon!
Love ya'll and tahnks again!