Parents arrive today-

I am so excited and exhausted trying toget everything just perfect for my parents and their arrival. It is exciting and nerveracking at the same time.
I was up late thte last few nights trying to get it all done. The house, the party plans for Austin, my new haircolor, and new haircut.
I weighed this am at 200.2 so I have sustained the best weight I have seen this round- Today is my last day of R1 P3.
I went early this morning and even got a spray tan- yes- I know very vein and fake but it does make me glow- and there is less to glow. The pasty white on my legs is gone and it helps cover some of the bruises I have on my legs from my B12 shots.
I tried this Versa Spa spray tan system here in town- so it was amazing- $20.00 and 5 minutes later- I look thinner, tanner and definately happier.
I don't know why I am so nervous- but I am.
I am anxious for their response- I hope it is good. I have invested way too much hype in this day- I am afraid I set myself up to be hurt- we will see!
No work tomorrow - Ssaturday is Austin's big day- I will try to post pics this weekend- the big reveal!

Stabilized

I am pleased to think I have stabilized this P3. Ihave been slowing introducing amounts of sugars, carbs ands starches this week. sunday corn chips- and alcohol- then Monday night- TOM :( and Tuesday night- two pieces of pizza. I was down two punds today after lots of water, a workout and two pieces of pizza.
I will be able to enjoy my sons first communion cake and not worry about it!
My parents fly in tomorrow- I am thrilled but not completely ready- I love to have everything ready but I not stressing- I can't freak out- it takes energy I need!
I will get it done and it will be good!
Austin is getting excited for his big day. Unfortunately I have alot of people bailing on him and who aren't coming- I am upset sinc eI have planned so much- but I have to refocus- this is for Austin and what he wants. I have had to scramble- I have had the caterer back out on me and then my back up plan back out on me so now I am cooking for the reception- yikes- did not plan on it- but sometimes it is easier if you do it yourself instead of relying on some people. Customer service around these parts has a huge price tag- so my price tag is time.
It will cost me time but I will sleep when i am dead- right!
See you tomorrow folks- I am debating about what to wear to the airport- the weather is changing and so I will see what is in the closet and looks good!

Fun weekend

I had a fun weekend, the weight stabilized really well considering the 2 tequila shots on Saturday mixed with the yummy margarita and then Sunday the mojto and glass of wine!
202.2 is what the scale said today- so that is well!
I will eat clean today for the sake of feeling better and getting more energy!
Busy week- Parents fly in Thursday and atons to do for the weekend. My caterer backed out on me saturday for this saturday - so we will see what I come up - needless to say B12 and getting to bed on time will be my plan!
Hovering over that 200 mark - so introducing those 13 blue corn chips yesterday ( a little earlier than I should) we will see I was pleased that it wasn't that bad on the scale - chips were good though! First chips since 2 months- atleast the guacomole attached to them was even better!
2 poached eggs fro breakfast and off we go to the final 4 days of P3. Really excited about this weekend!

Snow in April in AZ

Okay - Hell has frozen over, pigs are flying and thank GOD it is friday!
I work at a middle school so I really have seen pigs fly! Ha HA
weighed in today and was at 202.5 so maintaining is going well. I stayed up late last night cleaning out my closet- I had to get rid of the bigger clothes and things so I was fed up with trying on two to three items and discarding because they don't fit- so I decided to just get rid of them- starting at 9:00 - laundry and cleaning a closet not a good idea- but it is done and boy is it awesome!
Organized the shoes and I don't have room for anymore- so I willhave to make room - I LOVE shoes!
The weather has cancelled and postponed baseball games which has given this Little League Mom a break! A well needed break!
I took a B12 injection yesterday and I seriously wonder why I did not take this sooner- I guess the older you get the wiser you really are- wise to the fact you don't know a damned thing!
Well- I plan to get laundry ( ugh) caught up this weekend and hopefully will paint my bedroom so I can put out my new duvet cover and new curtains- WE will see!
Next week my parents fly in for AUstin's first communion so I am thrilled about that and the reveal- they still have NO idea- so I will report on the reactions- and I will have pictures to post by this weekend of the new ( skinnier) me - no more double chins!
Love, Laughs and Life
Enjoy!

No Birthday blues here

What a fabulous day yesterday!
Thanks for all the awesome birthday wishes- I loved it!
We fired up the Jack LaLane juicer last night and celebrated my birthday present with yummy fresh juice!
To some it may sound cheesy but I wanted the juicer and I am really glad, I had fresh squeezed orange and mango juice this morning!
Well we had the little league game cancelled due to heavy winds, YEAH, and so we out to dinner, I ate my beef fajitas and loved teh gaucomole- yummmy! Didn't eat the rice on teh platter or the tortillas but I loved the Margarita that came with my dinner special- that was my splurge!
So worth it!
I was up 1.5 pounds so I am stabilizing at 203 and my last LDW was 203 so I was pleased about that! I plan to eat clean today and push the water- I don't feel like I have kept that up!
The best part was- I was able to push the plate away last night and not eat after I felt full. The boys did not mind having my free ice cream dessert either! I feel as I have mentally conquered the overeating ordeal and the need to constantly put food in my mouth. Really gently eating and enjoying the bites you are able to eat makes sense in my mind. After going through complusive eating 12 step program the gentle eating has really helped! I look back at my birthday and know that I indulged but it was a special occasion and it was under control!
It also helps when the food is worth the bites and intake!
Before I was eating to subdue- now I ate and celebrated without the junk! YEAH so another year older and wiser is true!
I am also excied about my new followers- hello to my new blogging buddies!
One more thing of note- Please say a little hoorah for HEATHER- my friend who told me about HCG and she saved my life! The reason you need to say a Hoorah for her over the weekend she is doing a triathlon- so wish her well and hope she improves her times and conquers it as well!
GO HEATHER!!!!

A year older and wiser

Thanks to my fellow gals out there blogging away!
have not weighed since yeterday- got on this a.m. without doing it yet!
Looking forward to hearing from my parents today every time I thank my ffather for having me or raising me he says, Ha Ha Ha (that was amanly chuckle) it was my pleasure! ( Ha Ha Ha) then my Mom syas, "JOe" don't say that!! they crack me up - but I am serious- great parents,great childhood and I love my husband as much as my mom and dad love each other! I think that is important- that support system. speaking of support, my husband got me a Jack LaLane juicer for my birthday- we will test it out after little league gmae tonight! How cute is that I said I wanted a juicer instead of my blender and that is what he bought! I really would have loved diamonds but hey- a juicer is the next best thing! Huh gals!
Gonna go weigh in and shower! Have a lovely day ladies and thanks for all the kudos yeserday!

time to settle in

I have ost a total of 35 pounds which was my goal- I have a irthdya tomorrow but i was reminded to stay around my LDW - which I had forgotten so for good freinds I am thankful- I am sad I have to hold off on breaking that 200 mark till next round- maintaining is really a four letter word to me right now- Maintaining is hard- it is consistency and I am not good at that in the past! I will have to prevail!

My work sucks right now- we seem to be getting more things to do and less pay and less respect. I am thankful I have a job but how much disrespect can people take. I also recieved a text because of little league and to volunteer for children is kinda my lie's work- so it is second nature to volunteer for kids or a kids organization- we get no respect though- these parents are so mad and hateful and ungrateful and filled with entitlement- it turns my stomach!
I am so feeling battered by the public and yet they expect others to raise or entertain or organize for them and their children wihtout being the least bit reflective.
I think our nation is so worried about being politically correct that we are removed from the hard truth of the truth!
I know I am ranting and raving but I have reached my breaking point- or maybe it is almost that TOM- who knows- either way it is disgust!
okay- I am not helping anybody - sorry! peace out!

LIFE IS GOOD- DOWN A POUND TODAY

ok, I really love my scale - it read 201.2 down another pound since yesterday! whhewww hooooo! I guess screaming in the bathroom first thing in the morning is not good for Mr. Fleur's heart!
okay- so 1.2 pounds to go to reach my goal of being down under 200- Wednesday is my birthday so I am really determined. I figure I could give myself the best birthday present of all- losing this weight!
So clean eating and some exercise!
Back to work today but it pales in comparison to my excitement to being so close to the goal!
Okay bloggers- have a great start to your week and thank goodness for HCG!
Last night looked at calendar and already planning next round- think I am shooting for June- we will see!

I love wings

I ate chicken wings last night- My brother and sister in law were in town and after a fun filled busy day we went and had wings and pizza. I was so well behaved and only had the wings- ha ha- behaving and having wings, that is an oxt moron.
Down .6 ounces today! I think my body is being close to the resetting point. the celery was good and I even had some cheese off the top of the pizza- so all in all I was so happy to see the loss thos a.m. We grilled out yesterday im between the two ballgames, I had grilled onions on top of a blue cheese burger- yum ! It filled me up and was tasty. Didn't need the bun!
Yesterday's weight was at 202.8 so today was 202.2 - okay still hovering around the 200 mark - I have 2 weeks till those parents step off the plane- I rely hope I can be down under 200 by then! I will keep plugging away!
Yesterday was Mr. Fleur's b- day I stayed away from homemade chocolate cookies and brownies- so I think I have the addiction in it's place. I have found some yummy tea I drink at night- really helps!
We swam after the games so the fun exercise was worth it!
Have a good monday ( another oxymoron) Ha Ha!

TGIF

I am so thankful it is friday!
I weighed in at 203.4 this morning- not bad, I had a big lunch yesterday and ate light last night= so all is well- Still hovering above 200 though! Bummer!
Baseball has made it crazy- I am so glad work is done with testing- so sick of the whole process by now!
Having family come up for weekend- so gearing up for that- I planted the front flowerbed this a.m. before work! It looks great and will be in great shape for the first communion round of guests as well in two weeks. Two weeks to lose 10 pounds- please I miss my HCG! I miss it!
Gotta go enjoy and start the weekend!

Down 2 pounds

Thank goodness I am back down to 203.0 I want to shed those 3 pounds more than anything! I really had a big lunch than a small dinner so I think eating clean will help with it all!
Spent the night at the ball field at my son's minor's little league game. That keeps your mind off of food. Things are so crazy right now I am thrilled I am not turning to food. I am gonna try a B12 injection today so I can have a little more energy! I still haven't exercised before work so that is a new goal!
Lots of baseball left and pounds too!

great dinner

great chicken fajita dinner salad last night
I was up 1.2 pounds today but that homemade guacomole was delicious with the homemade green salsa. I have missed my taco salads. didn't really miss the chips gladly- good without it!
Anybody who is near Kansas City there is a great spice called "Spanish Gardens" it has great flavor without extra salt and no sugar! they have taco sauce that my kids love- but my sister only ships me the seasonings. Love it- try it!
Kids still testing at school and my 7th graders are fabulous- very good group!
Work is still stressful and the leadership and district is not making things easier.
Mr. Fleur is overstressed and workign too hard- yesterday he came home and hugged the skinnier me and said, " I am numb from the stress but you make everything better" after 16 years of marriage- that was sooo sweet! Love that guy!
Say prayers for his stress to decrease. My friend Lis is off to VEGAS- yeah for her- she is not taking her scale!!!! so we arethinking of ya Lis and Good luck!
Gonna try to squeeze in a workout in the am before school- hope this helps!

wowie- zowie

Okay- heading into P3 I was nervous and scared- boy- what was I afraid of- I really can do this!
I ate clean yesterday- despite a crazy day- I had a yummy skewer of grilled chicken, onion bell pepper and pneaplle my hubby grilled the night before! It is good even cold and the next day! I was hanging around 204.00 since my last big drop of 202 so I thought I should behappy with it- yesterday I saw 204.6 and tosay was 203.4 so yeah to a loss of 1.2 - I LOVE IT! I have got to get under that 200 mark!
another exciting piece of news!
I am planning this whole thing around being down 35- 40 pounds by May 1, that is why I started - I went shopping yesterday for this jacket I had in mind to buy- i had the tried on teh 18- yesterday it was way too big! YEAH! so then I tried the 16 W - I relly hate that W behind every number. Low and behold I tried it on and it fit!!! so I was browsing around the smaller sizes ( unknown terrirtory for this gal) and I found a 16 P ( that means petite- which I am not- but I am getting there.) I tried it on and it FIT 1 but also it looked better and more slimming than the 16W- i didn't need the W- OF COURSE I BOUGHT IT- it was on sale too- and it was $3.00 less than the W! I was thrilled and elated and couldn't wait to go home and show Mr. Fleur!
well- off to monitor testing- when the scale does not show the clothes will!
Have a great one!

So CLOSE

So close to the goal- I was on the road to San Jose to a funeral for 4 days- what a drive- I have to say I was thrilled at how well I did on the road and staying to the protocol. Taking my scale is a huge ordeal! GREAT idea I knew where I was every day!
I hit 202.4 yesterday morning- I am 2 pounds from my goal!
This morning- I was back up to 204.1 today! what the heck! I was so close-and now I feel like ughh! I had hoped that I would have hit 35 lbs- oh well! I will get there- just not now! I will focus on P3 now- trying to get into a groove and adjust!
I have missed my blogging though while on the road-
Have a great friday!

It is EASTER BREAK!

I weighed in this morning at 206.0 Cannot beleive it is getting closer to being done with R1 P2 . I have fallen in love with my HCG. Really gonna miss it! I guess I transferred one addiction to another. 6 pounds away from breaking 200! I really want to lose the total of 35 for the first round here- that puts me half way to my total goal I want to reach in a year! So little steps at a time! It is EASTER weekend but I will have to dart off to a funeral for Monday night so we are going to church on Saturday. I am kinda excited to take this act on the road.
WE will see!
I have not told my mother and father or sister I am doing this. They all fly out for my son's first communion May 1st and I want to surprise them. I think they willbe surprised- I am gonna push through R1 P3 to lose another 5 pounds in the month so I can say I lost 40 by May 1st!
So thrilled about it- I will keep you posted!